THERE’S A SPARK BUT NO FIRE

I don’t see a lot of obviously gay girls just out and about. I saw her a few times before my obvious flirting motivated her to give me her phone number.

She wrote it on the back of someone else’s business card. The way she signed her name, it was like some abstract piece of art. Then I got excited about her, I love a creative mind….

That night we exchanged a few text messages before we talked. She had a slight northern accent. She’s a chef! She doesn’t do the whole lesbian role thing…So many things I learned, that I liked. So many things, but…that spark wasn’t there.

That ended up being our first and only phone conversation. And I don’t feel like I’m missing anything.

The spark wasn’t there. I wasn’t excited about talking to her again. I wasn’t excited about the possibility of hanging out with her. How did that happen? Especially when she had so many of the traits I like in women.

She looked good on paper.

You ever had that happened to you? Where your logical mind says, “Yes, this person would be a good match for you, she is this and this and this…” But your body, your heart, doesn’t feel so inspired to take the next step.

In these situations, when your mind and your heart are at odds, which one do you find yourself more inclined to listen to?

I tend to follow my heart even if it does have a bad sense of direction.

ABOUT ALIX BILLIE GOLDEN AKA ABG
I am a brown girl that craves desperately to be in Atlanta, Ga but am in Columbia being driven crazy by my homophobic family. The things that happen to me can often seem unbelievable. And I write about it all. Hopefully, someone out there will learn from my mistakes without making their own. There’s more from me at www.abrowngirl.com